Awake

In less than five hours I will be entering a taxi taking my family and me to the airport.

Usually people have these super obnoxious flight times when they travel across the world...not to Montana.

Two reasons why I am able to wake up at 4:30 am.
1) I get to watch the sun rise
2) I love the airport

I wish I could stay home for just a week longer to spend time with my friends who I never get to see... just twice a year.
For reasons unexplainable it's refreshing to be with them.

Goodbye California, Hello Montana

Once

Last night was a disaster.
I have never been that messed up before.
How stupid was I to think that my parents wouldn't make me drive home. I criticize those people who do it, yet I'm just as bad.
He told me that honesty is key. I should have said something. I didn't want to risk the punishment when the outcome could have been so much worse.
No more worrying, it's through, lesson learned.
But probably one of the best 'family' parties in awhile. Happy 20th Birthday!

Finished

I'm done with all the bull shit

I'm done with all the drama

I'm done pretending that everything is alright

I'm done waiting for you

I'm done acting like the good girl

...............I'm just done...............

Unplanned

Sometimes things don't always go as planned. I didn't make it to Vegas, but regardless it was a nice weekend. I was able to spend over 48 hours straight with a friend who I never really was close with.

"Everything happens for a reason"
This is what gets me through life. My past 3 days have been crazy yet I know what I've learned from it.

I'm still thinking about him...a lot.. I'm counting down the minutes...sadly. Why are boys so stupid? Why don't they ever get it?

Vegas

Just two more days until Vegas with my loves. Roadtrippin it with Ellie, Mykel, and Christina! So stoked to get away for girls nights (plural) Classy asses all day! An partay and partay and partayy!

Impulse

I'm so close to just picking up the phone and telling you how I really feel. You're like a ghost, always coming and going. Why can't you stay. I want to pack up my bags and be with you...

Connected

For whatever reason, I feel pulled to you. It has never been like this before, but now I can't hold back these feelings. Don't leave me all alone, I want you back to be with me.

Caged

I fell into his trap, now I've been locked up for time. I knew this was going to happen but I risked the pain for those few moments. I'm not usually one to engrave such emotions so deep. It's summer so why am I dwelling in the past?

Fresh

A new beginning is all I need. A simple reset, a clean slate. This new week starts a new me.


Reminiscing... i love my best friend ellie. she was all mine this weekend when i was alone. i missed her. VEGAS soon. eddiemykejaq

Measuring

weight is stupid. starting a new diet. eat less, exercise more! love/hate relationship with the bc pill..making me fat.. this picture is perfect.

Bringing to Life

I felt compelled to get a blog. Not going to lie, it feels weird. Nobody is going to read this because nobody knows I have one, but it's different...